I attempted and now I'm just struggling a lot. I can't get over her. I'm not taking the break up seriously on my part because that's just how i cope.. I can't bring myself to be honest with myself anymore. I'm tired and I just hope I don't wake up tomorrow, yesterday was truly the most devastating day of my life. I'm officially just a burner contact, I'm something to use and throw away.. then picked back up until I have another use. I want this all to be over, I can't handle it anymore. I miss my love, my world, my girl, my home, my heart, my soul. But I'm clinging to someone who doesn't love me. i've been crying for hours on end hoping that none of this is real and that it's just a sick dream, but i fear this is reality, my reality. I wanna scream, claw out my hair, & scratch at my skin all at once. I'm shaking so violently, the world and even my world hate me.